Another chance

We've decided to give Chloe another chance. She is lucky she's so darn adorable.

I'm going to continue walking her twice a day, if she goes a day without pooping, in the crate she goes. We've also moved the crate away from walls and furniture and we're securing it with extra locks so that she can't break out again. Eventually, I'd like to install an invisible fence around our yard.

Chloe (..continued)

I can't bring myself to do it.

Chloe

Today, Jason and I are giving Chloe to the local humane society to be adopted. I’ve been praying about this since we moved to PA. I don’t want to give up my little girl, but I feel that I don’t have a choice. I’ve been working with her for 5 months, walking her twice a day, praising her with treats, giving her commands, but she is still going potty in our house. I feel like I’m living in “Chloe’s House of Poo”. I could understand if it were an accident, but it’s not. She’s doing it on purpose. I take her outside, sometimes we walk for miles, then I bring her in the house and she hides behind the couch or in another room.
The final straw came the other night when I brought her inside and she snuck away to poop, then I put her in her crate for the night, and I was woken up at 3:00am to find our couch had been torn up, and she pooped again in the dining room. Somehow she had escaped and decided to leave a path of destruction through the house.
Moving to PA was supposed to be a fresh start for us. Nice new house, new carpet, new furniture (hand me down from his parents, but very new and nice to us.) and in 5 short months, Chloe has defintely left her “mark” on things. Jason and I want to have children in the very near future and I had to ask myself, “Do I want a baby crawling around on a poop floor?” No!
So today, we are taking her to the humane society. I hope that she will be adopted to another family, maybe they will have a back yard where she can run and play, maybe they will have the patience to work through her behavioral issues. That’s my prayer. I love her so much, this was not an easy decision.

I'm sabotaging myself..

It's Tuesday and I ate leftover Easter ham and mashed potatoes for lunch AND dinner, and then Jason brought me home some beef and broccoli chinese food after he went golfing today and I ate that TOO! Ugh! (And I ate that while watching The Biggest Loser, what is wrong with me?) This week is going to be bad. I really need to exercise hard this week and drink as much water as I possibly can. I'm pissed off at myself.

I do have great news though, Jason has been consistently losing weight every week. He's down 1 pant size and all his pants are baggy in the back side. We're gonna need to get him some new dress slacks and belts soon.

Setbacks

I was expecting a 2lb weight loss on Monday morning, instead I got a 2lb GAIN! Ugh! I think it's just water weight because of the salty Easter ham on Sunday. I've been doing pretty good.

It's time to get back to basics. More tracking, less procrastinating.

In other news, I walked a 5K yesterday! It felt amazing and completely exhausting! It was a gorgeous day though, and I couldn't pass up the opportunity. Trying to stick with the exercise motivation I've got going on, I woke up this morning and took a walk at sunrise with my girls.

Here's some pictures from my 5K walk yesterday:

15 pounds

I lost 1.6 last week and I think I will be close to two pounds this week as well. I cheated and weighed myself and i'm down a pound in 4 days. So, I've lost a total of 15lbs on Weight Watchers so far. I'm thrilled ;-)

5K? Heck yeah!

My friend Cara tells me that Weight Watchers is pushing for people to get in shape and walk a 5K in the month of May. I missed out on that cause I haven't been going to meetings but I know I can do it. So, the next really nice day we have, I'm doing it! =)

Thanks Cara!

It saddens me

Two posts in one day, I just can't help myself.

Jason and I have been going to church for two months, and about 1 month ago, something very special happened. I accepted Jesus Christ. I am saved. I feel reborn, I honestly feel completely different. I'm different in my actions, the way I think, the way I feel, the way I handle my relationships with others. Everything is different. I have a great new outlook on life and it feels amazing.

Here's the thing... my friends have disappeared. I don't get e-mails anymore, I don't receive little messages on facebook. I know that doesn't exactly equal friendship, but since we moved so far away, those little things mean a lot to me. I have friends who are atheists. I've never shunned them or completely ignored them for their beliefs. I'm not being preachy and it's not like I've joined a cult.. I'M A CHRISTIAN! DEAL WITH IT! That's all for my little rant this morning.

If any of my friends are reading this, I love you. Please don't shut me out. But if you do, that's okay.. With Jesus, I have all I need.

How did that happen?

Last Wednesday the dogs got sick with diahrreah after our walk, it wasn't pretty! In the past, I've always been quick to take them to a vet, spend hundreds of dollars just to find out nothing was wrong, it was just a stomach bug. So, I decided to wait and see if they got better. I was up all night Wednesday with them, NO SLEEP. Thursday they seemed to get a little better so I figured we could skip on the vet. Then Friday morning things got much worse and I pretty much had to stand outside in the rain with them ALL DAY. Jason got home and we rushed to the vet. Thankfully, they just seemed to have a virus or something. The medication has stopped everything and I'm a happy camper. Why am I telling you all of this?

Well, since I didn't sleep at all Wed-Fri, I didn't feel like cooking, so we basically threw Weight Watchers out the window the entire weekend. I decided I would start over today, so I got on the scale and by some MIRACLE, I'm down 2lbs. How did that happen?? I had pizza, we had Red Robin yesterday, etc. At least I can say I didn't go crazy with snacks or anything, but I thought I completely blew it and would have to make up for this weekend over several weeks. Maybe the stress played a factor? Either way, I'm glad to be down 2lbs and I've decided to start weighing myself on Mondays because I think it will be a good start to my week.

Pain

I went to the dentist this morning to finish up a root canal that I started 2 weeks ago. I made the mistake of going in there with a headache and it just got progressively worse while I was there. My dentist decided to stop and finish up next week. So, now the whole side of my face is swollen, and I'm in a lot of pain. At least she gave me percocet this time. The tylenol 3 I got last week sucked.

Not very motivated

I haven't been feeling motivated lately. Maybe quitting the Weight Watchers meetings was a mistake? I'm not sure. I'm still eating my daily points and not going over, but i'm slacking off on eating fruits and I can feel that my metabolism has taken a dive. I'm not hungry every 2 hours like normal. Tomorrow is a new day and I'm going to start by eating a piece of fruit or a veggie with every meal.

Lately I've been having whole wheat toast with Weight Watchers cream cheese, a fat free yogurt, and a banana. That is pretty filling but I think I'm getting burned out. I feel burned out on eggs tho too. Breakfast is a hard meal for me.

Jason suggested I come up with a Jalapeno Cheddar Turkey Burger, so after church today I put some together and they were amazing! I ate 3! Each burger was 8 points (which includes the wheat bun) I can't believe I ate that much, couldn't help myself though. Afterward, I passed out on the couch for a couple hours. I haven't eaten in 7 hours and I'm still full from lunch.

So, goal for tomorrow: EAT FRUIT!